A crowd is chaos in my world. Anxiety and panic set in and my flight or fight kicks in, more flight than fight. After a day of grocery shopping in a crowded Wal-Mart, the unfortunate reality is, I need recovery days.
I love people. I love to talk. It just has to be on a one to one basis, text messages, or a very small group. I crave quiet. I crave peace. Living with anxiety, panic disorder, PTSD, ADD, depression makes life just a bit more interesting. Living with fibromyalgia, hypothyroidism, arthritis, along with a few other medical issues makes life a bit harder. Everyday is a new adventure.
A crowd may bring panic. A crowd may keep me behind closed doors in my home. A crowd may make me anxious. A crowd may be chaos for me but time alone in God's presence is priceless.
My mental and medical health may have changed my life and took me out of the working world, but it has given me a blessing. Time to work on myself. Time to get closer to God. Time to write.
This is part of the Five Minute Friday's link-up